mist on the wind

People have said that the older you get, the shorter the years feel. 2014 was the first year that I really experienced that - the sensation of time unraveling quickly; slipping through your fingers. I find myself torn between childhood and adulthood, grasping onto and dreaming of both. It is an ever-present reminder that our lives are like mist on the wind.

But if you look a little closer, they are full of moments - moments that gleam and glow; moments that seem to stretch on forever. The little moments that turn out to be the big ones. Time is so intricately woven; so lovingly woven. 

This past year was absolutely full of those perfect little moments. Every year is bound to come with it's own unique set of highs and lows, twists and turns, and overall change, but it all so perfectly follows God's flawless plan. In 2014, I dove deeper into my relationship with my Heavenly Father, adventured around my home state; I welcomed little ones into this world and I held my great grandmother's hand just days before she went to live with the Lord in heaven. I learned to love every season of life, even my least favorite; God opened the door for my family to move houses after over a year of praying; I practiced and pursued the things (and people) that I love, and collected so many memories that I'll hold dear forever. I think I'll always see this year through rose-colored glasses. It was the best yet.

I have a lengthy mental list of resolutions and goals, but a specific one I want to work on in the new year is finding those moments and living them. I want to live intentionally this year. I have an awful habit of letting some days slip away because of tiny little things that seem to make it imperfect; I tend to let the imperfections blot out the moments that matter. But in 2015, my ultimate goal is to not let a single day go to waste. There are adventures to be had, people to meet and to love, creations to create, and more love to be found every day from God.

Aside from that, I do have a small compilation of goals for the coming year:

                       1. Find something to be grateful for in every day

                       2. Spend time in God's word every day

                       3. Pursue writing and short film making (for real, no more slacking)

                       4. Cultivate a healthy lifestyle

                       5. Be merciful and learn to not expect perfection from anything or anyone, including myself

This year I learned lessons in life. I learned that life is short and long and beautiful all at once. I'm still learning and I think I'll never stop - life is a learning process.

Thank you all for following along on this journey and for caring about the little moments. It is my prayer that the Lord will bless you abundantly in the new year and reveal His unconditional love to you. I could write a novel reflecting on life, but I'll end it here with saying that I am beyond excited to see what 2015 holds, and all the years beyond!

God is so, so good through it all.